HAPPY THANKSGIVING...nothing to be thankful for.. except for a half empty( or half full) back account

a week later...

A weeks gone since exams ended and we r already head over heels into studies... again my intuitions seem to be going right.... as usual.. be the good guy and screwed over by ur " FRIENDS"... anyways looking forward to moving to the smaller hostel... atleast i will be alone .. no friendship.. no problems either....

Falling in love for a second time ? !

I was chatting with somebody last evening and love and girlfriends came up as hot topics...
I have been in and out of love..and i realized something strange.
I cannot be in love again with some other person... it will be like repeat take in a movie...
imagine this... u meet your Girl Friend and say " i love you cutey pie !" and then suddenly relalize you have said these words before to somebody else.... wait who was it? oh yeah your last girl friend..! Wtf ! Feels like a deja vu....

As human beings we have habits and most boy friends do similar things to keep their girl friends happy rite?

Now if i do it fro a second time with another person isnt that a bit mechanical??

On one level i mite mean the words i say to her... but on another level may b i am just saying them because i know that she being like the previous girl would love to hear it?
That is SICK now.. isnt it?
LOVE by Objectives... its too complicated...

So better i convinced myself i will never fall in love again...
not that it is in my control.. but i will try and prevent it...

and say if i DO fall in love again .. will i be able to love her with the same passion again? having being hurt once... m a bit like a wounded animal...i learn from mistakes... would i be willing to fall for it again?
Or will it be something right this time?

just a thought...

A smile goes a long way..

IT does... Even with your worst enemy... its infectious.... you will always get one in return... if yours is genuine....just experienced it.....

4 months into my "New Beginning"

Every time i decide i will forget all my mistakes in this slot and move on to a new slot of my life.... and every time in my new slot i seem to carrying my mistakes with me... and i decide to find a new one....

Here i am @ ALLIANCE... decided have had enough with software engineering.... will forget COLD.. and be in touch with nammo....

4 motnhs through... nammo hasnt called once and i miss her badly.... she is more to me than the love of my life or my best friend.. she had been everything to me for 2 years @ Satyam.. parent, friend, love....


hmm no time to write... bloddy exams going on....
i must appreciate myself on starting the blog again....
hope i will continue writing...
impulsive as i am this might keep me from outbursts....

so long...